Thepanicdays

Since the day the gold bullion i have lost , i felt you took sth from me little by little unconsciousness. i felt as if my spirit was not mine. Everyday i am afraid to waste a little time.

so when i was very apt to sleep in the morning or noon , even so drowsy,but i must force myself to learn self-control.

I felt so tired of this kind of life.I want to relieve myself, but i cannot I have no choice

Every time I saw other people play games or something , I really want to do it, absolutely longing.Yet i scared to loose.

Maybe i give too much pressure on my shoulder. Maybe i should relax myself for a whole afternoon or a day .

Maybe i shoule do as i previous did .Maybe......All of maybe i indeed want. while i have not that excellent qualifications as others . If i am not go forward i will be the last one.

I donnot know what a person am i . maybe i am selfish,uncompromising , ugliness and so on in your eye. whatever you look .i only want myself not ohers.

Sometimes i also feel lonely. i miss home . mother,father , sister and brothers. i hate stay here where i havenot any relatives to depend.

i need you when i was lost, i need you help me!i an so frustrated . i lost confidence for my life.Where is my hope? when i could reach the goal? How can i? i am so puzzled..

I want to set free. how i hope when i go shopping i could forget my tasks and give me a immense relax.

How i wish i can dash my horror and happily to do what i really fond. so please donot plague me at all. This is tha only request i beg you --destiny.

If you say donot worry ,that is ok---sorry, i have not such ease attitude!

So never panic.! i beg ! i just want confidence!!!